Forgive me, darling!

Bryan left his apartment and drove his azure-BMW to his beloved-girlfriend’s house. It was Saturday night and he did know what he had to do. About fifty minutes, he arrived at Joan’s house. He stopped his car in front of high and big gates, then he phoned Joan.
“Darling, I’ve arrived.”
“Wait up honey, I’m coming!” Joan replied.
At the second, she appeared and Bryan was really impressed to her appearance. She looked like an angle with soft-pink dress, long-blonde hair, and beautiful feet with high heels. Her sweet fragrance also made him feel heaven.
Joan smiled and knew that she had hypnotized her boyfriend with her perfection. Bryan also gave her a smile. He came closer and they kissed. After that, they entered the car and Joan asked Bryan,
“Where will we go?”
“To the stars, of course!” he said.
“Hey, I’m serious!” Joan replied.
“Me too”, Bryan laughed.

She hadn’t been told by Bryan where they would go. From the glass, she looked around the road and she’s conscious that she never passed through this road. In confusion, her cell-phone rang. She looked at the number and she didn’t know who the caller was. Then she lifted it and spoke:
“Hello.”
“Sweety, I’m here”, a man replied.
Joan became more confused because she didn’t know who the man was calling.
“Who are you?
I’m sure you’ve got a wrong number.” Joan said.
“No sweety, I’m right.
I still remember your lovely voice and I would never forget it”, the man spoke.
“Are you insane? I don’t know you and will never know about you!” she replied madly.
Bryan looked confused but he just listened because he had to concentrate driving.
“Calm down sweety. Seems like you really want to bite me.” the man laughed.
“For God’s sake I’m asking, who are you?
If you don’t tell the truth, I’ll hang up this!” Joan said.
“Fine then! Joanne Elizabeth my sweety, I can’t believe you forgot me!
It’s me, William; William Franco. The one you had left to Brooklyn last two-year.” The man replied.

Joan remembered this man; he had been her boyfriend for three years when she had lived in Canada. She had to leave him because he had had an affair with another girl.
Actually Joan had still loved him but she had given him a freedom to choose. That’s why she had moved to Brooklyn in order to forget him. And she had tried starting a new life with her aunty and her cousin.
“Oh my God, what is this?” Joan whispered.
“I don’t have any kind of business with you!
We have decided to separate last time, so what do you want now?
And please don’t call me sweety! Because I ain’t your sweety anymore!”
“Fine Elly, I just wanna meet you for a moment.
I hope you don’t mind because I really miss you.”
“Heeyy, don’t say kind of bullshit like that!
We haven’t any kind of relationship anymore!
And you know? I have found the one who love me much more than you did!”
“hhmmhh, alright!
I understand, but can’t we become friends?” Will asked.

Having serious conversation, Joan didn’t know that Bryan’s car had entered the big restaurant and he had parked the car. He came closer to Joan and whispered,
“We’re arriving, darling.
Who’s the guy who’s talking with you?”
Joan startled and realized that she’s still with Bryan. She switched off her cell-phone and in confusion, she approached her face to Brian’s face.
“He’s here.”
“Who?” Bryan asked.
“My former,
Umhhmm, I don’t understand why he’s here and he said he wanted to meet me.”
“And you agree?”
“I said no!”
“Maybe he just wants to apologize and . . .”
“And what?” Joan cut.
“Uuhhmm, to begin loving you like the past.”
“Heeyyy, I don’t wanna hear that!
Seems like you wanna let me go.”
“I don’t know but maybe he still loves you and wanna rebuild a new and better relationship.”
“Bryan my darling, I’m Joan, your girlfriend! You want me to back with him?
Oh God! What’s wrong with you!
If you don’t love me, just be honest!
I don’t like this situation at all!

Bryan got her hug and kissed her forehead softly.
“Sstttss, you’re wrong.
My love is just for you.”
“So, why you said that?”
“Listen, I’m just worried that you’ll leave me because of him.
I do love you, I don’t wanna lose you.
I know you still love him till this moment.”



Joan released herself from Bryan’s hug, she’s very shocked to hear his confession.
“My goodness! You’re kidding and this is not funny at all!”
“Joan My darling, your eyes never tell the lies.”
“What’s?
I hate you! I’m mad at you! I don’t wanna meet you for rest of my life!
I promise!”
“No! I’ll die if you do it to me!”
“Huuh!
Let me go home! I hate to see your face!”
Bryan looked confused, he knew he had made Joan moped.
“Mmmhh, I planned to have a special dinner with you.
But now? Everything’s gonna be crashed!”
Joan kept silent and gave no answer.
“Fine, I’ll take you home then we have dinner at your home.
How is it? Good?
Or you have any idea?” Bryan tried to coax Joan, but it seemed useless because Joan still looked gloomy.
Bryan gave up and he had no idea to make her smile. He started the car-engine and he’d bring her to more special place.
* * * * *
Twenty minutes later, they arrived at Brooklyn Park. They came out from the car and there had been so many people around them.
“Darling, say something please!
I don’t like you’re doing this to me!” Bryan started begging.
“Ok!” Joan said.
“Ok what?”
“I ain’t mat at you anymore!”
“Really? Thanks darling. You’re really my angel.”
They’re hugging for a moment and Bryan’s feeling so happy that he had successfully made her cheerful. After hugging, Bryan initiated to buy her some foods or drinks.
“Darling, are you thirsty?”
“Not really.”
“I’ll find you some drinks and snacks, you’ll wait?”
“I’m waiting here.”
“Ok, wait a minute! I’ll be back!”

Joan’s alone at that moment and she looked around the park. When she stared at the sky, someone greeted beside her.
“Elly, you’re here!”
Joan turned her head and she’s really surprised because someone who greeted her was the one who had talked with her a moment ago.
“Will?
What’re you doing here?”
“I’m enjoying my time without someone beside me. And you?”
“I’m here with my boyfriend, he’s buying me something.”
“This is very coincidental. I can’t believe we’re meeting here after 2 years passed by.”
“Yes, you’re right.
Honestly, why are you here?”
“My older brother has some business here and he asked me to help him.
So here I am.”
“You said you’re alone tonight. How about your last girlfriend?”
“We can’t continue our relationship because there’re so many differences between us. And we couldn’t unite them.
So we decided to separate, that’s why I agree to help my brother here.” He explains.
“Hhhmmhh . . .”

They were looking at each other and Joan knew she hadn’t done that. She belonged to Brian. “Elly, I wanna you know, that . . .
“Pardon?”
“That . . . I really miss you;
The one who had given me wings to fly and made me touch the sky,
The one who had touched my heart,
No one besides you Elly.”
“Don’t say that! They’re our past!
U can’t say it to me right now! Cause I ain’t yours anymore!”
“Elly, can’t you forgive me and forget my faults in the past?
You must know, I never stop thinking about you!”
“Bullshit! So why you chose the other girl? Why?”
“It seemed hard to believe that I had to love her. I don’t know because I was very confused at that time.”
“You’re untrustworthy man! I just can say there’s nothing between us.”

That’s very confusing for Joan to know Will’s feeling. She couldn’t accept it because she belonged to Bryan; the man who had loved her very much. In her musing, she didn’t realize when Will got closer to her. Will gave her a kiss but strangely Joan didn’t refuse it. She made no move. Indeed, she kissed him back.

Joan didn’t know how long it took times, and now they’re hugging. Joan felt the warmth from Will. Same feeling when she’s with Bryan.
Joan forgot that she’s with Bryan in that place. When they’re still hugging, Joan looked Bryan watched them from his place. Joan left Will and found Bryan.
“What a romantic!” Bryan said with red face.
“No, let me explain, it just unintentionally happened! There’s nothing between I and Will.”
“Just keep your explanation!”

Bryan left her quickly to his car. Joan tried to chase him but Bryan’s car had moved very fast. Joan felt very guilty and she cried. She didn’t know how Brian would forgive her.
In regret, Willy approached her.
“I’m very sorry Elly,
I didn’t mean to do that but it came from my heart.”
“Leave me alone Will! Please! Leave me alone!”
“No, I can’t let you alone!
I’ll take you home! It’s been midnight.”
* * * * *
In her room, Joan couldn’t stop thinking of Bryan. She tried to call him but she got no answer. When she was looking at the picture of her and Bryan, she became very sad to remember their last tragedy. She really missed her man.
In daydreaming, her cell-phone rang.
Her heart crashed after getting the news from hospital which mentioned that Bryan had got serious injuries and he hadn’t been conscious. Brian had got fatal accident after leaving Brooklyn Park. His car had been hit by a truck and the car was destroyed.

Joan cursed herself. She knew it’s because of her. She couldn’t believe that the accident had happened to his beloved man. In her panic, she just could cry; cried hysterically and blamed herself. She’d never forgive herself if she lost Bryan.
The following day, Bryan hadn’t been conscious. Joan still sobbed beside him. She’d wait for him until he became sober. Doctor had said that there’s very little possibility for him to recover. Because the accident had caused him get so much serious injuries.

At night, when Joan accompanied Bryan in the hospital, Bryan’s hand held Joan’s fingers. Joan awakened and got surprised to see him conscious.
“Let me call the doctor.”
“No, stay please!
You must know this,
I’m happy if you’re happy,
You’re my truly happiness.
I l o v e you Jo o. . .” his words stopped and he had reached the hereafter.
“NO. . . .darling please, don’t leave me pleeeasse. . . !” she screamed hysterically.
“I love you darling, very much love you! Please . . . wake up!
Don’t leave me please!!”

Joan couldn’t stop crying, she wasn’t able to stay without Bryan. Moreover, she hadn’t apologized to his beloved man. She would never forgive herself for rest of her life.

* * * * *

A month later
Alone in the restaurant, Joan enjoyed her loneliness with a glass of coffee. She recalled her past with Bryan when they were in that restaurant.

Suddenly Joan sobbed by herself. In her sob, she saw Bryan was sitting in front of her. She felt she’s not in her place. She tried to stop crying, and she saw Bryan’s speaking to her:
“Darling, you’re my eternal spring,
I really love you, but I know we can’t be together like the past.
Please don’t you keep being sad like this everytime. I don’t like to see it.
I just wanna find you always happy.”
“Darling, please forgive me. You must know that there’s nothing between Will and I, believe me!” Joan begged.
“Sstttsss, I do believe you. I’ve forgiven you; you’re always the sunshine in my heart.
No one can change it.”

They smiled. There’re no more tears in Joan’s face. She’s very happy to be Bryan’s side. Joan held Bryan’s hand and they’re hugging. Suddenly, Bryan disappeared. She just heard the voice from the waitress who woke her up.
Joan looked around and she knew that she had been asleep and dreamed being with Bryan.
Although it was just dream, Joan did feel happy. Now she knew that Bryan had found his happiness and he also had forgiven her.

Joan walked to her house. She’s ready to start a new life without Bryan. She’s smiling when stared at the running twilight in far away; ready to welcome the dark lord.


March, 2011
-waian’s-

a memory from the PAST

...

Now I know . . .

I feel the horizon
Turn away
When he doesn’t
Find us together

I can’t see
the light-orange from
the twilight anymore
When these eyes
No longer meet
In the shade
Of your face

Longing and
A thousand of sadness
Scratch on
My deepest soul
When I stare
At the sky-night
Without moon and stars

Now I know
My loneliness
Is Accompanied by
The silence of universe

I look at
My footsteps
And
Now I know
I go without you . . .